Denis, LePetitMartien

[Peter Korsten]

Op 25-1-2016 om 19:56 schreef Komatos:
> Wasn't he just telling us in mid December that the worst was behind him and he was slowly recuperating? How sad. So young too.

Once you get to the stage of "promising new therapies" like 
immunotherapy, that means that the regular ones didn't catch on, or at 
least, not enough. Which is why I didn't go and expect him to make it, 
in order not to be shocked too much when the inevitable happened.

I also believe that he didn't want to burden and worry us too much with 
his troubles. Keep a brave face for those at home, that sort of thing. 
In short, he was a nice guy, and advised me to have my oesophagus 
checked regularly, while he was dying. I might just take him up on that.

At times like these, it sucks to be a materialist. Atheism, at least, 
leaves open the possibility that there's "something", whatever that may 
be. Materialism doesn't leave any space for hope. I already wrote about 
that in an earlier post, about taking every day as it comes.

What's particularly sad is that the last conversation he had on the 
Music Bar -apart from his last message about the dystopian nature of 
some parts of Tokyo and Shanghai- was about his birthday, a mere four 
days after the Paris attacks last November. While he was in such a bad 
state, and desperately wanted to live, others were busy destroying 
lives, including their own. Some family and friends of his friends got 
killed.

It makes you realise that life is a very precious thing, and can never, 
ever, be taken for granted.

- Peter